Unsecure ?

I felt so unsecure all in the sudden,I don't know why.I can't feel the way you should protect me.I just need your supports baby, Why can't you understand? :')

I don't need other boys to protect me.. why can't I feel ?

You don't know sometimes I'm sad, You wouldn't understand..

You felt disappoint on me ,Yes, I do disappoint on you too sometimes.

Do what a bf should do please... Supporting me, not like I'm forcing you to support me..

I hope you can understand, I'm feeling so unsecure.. Friends that are fake these days..

I don't trust others, even friends, I only fully trust you, You need to know that..

I don't know how to describe my feelings now.. 

I felt scared,I need a hug seriously :'(

I felt lonely , like I don't have a real friend I can trust ..

Do you know how I feel when you treat me so cool these 2 days?

I do scared you lost the trust on me..

baby..

Don't treat me cool next time again please can ?

I don't tell you doesn't means I'm mad at you or anything..

You do think I'm silly, stupid.. crying while writing this post..

I just want you to understand, I am cow , I don't listen to you I know..

You might think that I'm super duper cow that doesn't wants to listen or understand..

I understands now , I really understands..

No matter how many times I told you I hate you.. that's not true okay ? :'(

I miss you baby :'(...

12:56AM
8/12/2012

So what ?

Valentines? Movie Valentines ? What so special ?

Couples hanging out together going for a movie ?

For me, Valentines is just a greeting , not something special for me.

Today is our fifth valentine together , nothing special , waking up early in the morning , have a bath , ate my breakfast and doing the same thing repeatly everyday facing the monitor.

Sometimes I just don't know why.. I felt envy those couples which they can meet like always..

What about me ? Why is it so hard for me just to see you ? I wished that you can be right by my side all the time.. but why not ? :'/

I know.. I Understand, I should be patient right ?

You told me I shouldn't envy right ?..

I think too much , I miss you too much.

You wouldn't know.. maybe ?

Seriously I need a hug from you now, I don't know why I got this feeling, I felt lonely :'/ 

Sighs , I think too much..

I should be happy that I got you right ? 

I'm just scared to be alone sometimes.. I needed you. 

Should stop here , I'm just too emotional.. :'/ 

See you on Saturday baby. Miss ya.

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15:42

14.11.2012

When It Comes To Love. ♥

Have you ever feel that you can't live without him/her ?

Imagining that how your life would be without him/her one day ? 

And not willing to say good-bye ?

Yes, that feeling , Missing him whole day.

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J.E story begins ..

He knew who am I while I knew who he is long ago but we didn't chat or anything.

After a few months, I randomly open his account and I chat with him,It's kinda awkward cause he told me that he was shocked when he saw my name pop-ed out from his chatbox.

He was like 'Dafuq, EeLin Choong find me to chat? lol' 

He even said he didn't knew why that 'strong feelings' came when he started chatting with me.

We even exchange phone numbers , we text , He even call me at night for a chat before sleep.

In just a week , We hangout together, and I remembered the first time I brought him to join Ipoh International Run , He said that was his first time joining these sort of activity, lol. 

On the same day while waiting a long queue to buy tickets for movie, he whispered in my ears confess to me, alright... that's kinda shy.. hehe :$

1st Of July, We started our relationship.

In a month, We do argue because our relationship were unexpected and we knew each other in just a short time.Rumours everywhere, People who just knew my name and doesn't know me told him that I'm a playgirl, becareful of me,I'm just using him. Alright, I was kinda mad at the same time, two bitches in my school which one of the bitch's boyfriend were his best friend,but now they were no longer best friend. Luckily , He trusted me. He didn't care how others think about me or talked about me.

I do said break up few times,but he never gave up one me. He cried , I hurt him most of the time, He tried to change , He never ever gave up about himself. Many of us at this age might think that relationships at this age are mostly playing, but I can confirm that I'm not playing.

He used to like to go clubbing always , smoking always , thinks that relationships were just for fun. He changed, He stopped going to clubs,trying to stop smoking (I know it's hard..) ,and yea.. He also learned how to appreciate the one he loved the most. Same as me, I learned to appreciate too.. I used to be a playgirl fooling around before.. but not now.

It's hard to find a guy like him at this age.

Cares about me,Not fierce to me, Respects me,Doesn't breaks my heart,Doesn't lie me,Doesn't do things that are sorry to me,Hugs me when I'm not happy,The one who said sorry first when we argue, Won't ever talk loud to me, and many more..

What I would like to say is, Relationships is just not about I love you, You love me.

It's about TRUST, there would be nothing if there's no trust in a relationship.

Although we have been together for just four months plus, many thing could happen in this four months. 

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To be continued...

20:30

13.11.2012